Dreading Monday

I'm dreading tomorrow. It's not just an ordinary Monday. It's my first day back to work after having 12 weeks off for maternity leave. It's the first time both boys will be at daycare together and the beginning of a new chapter in our lives. Sam will probably never remember going by himself. He'll always have his little brother by his side. Although I'm extremely glad they'll be buddies and have each other to play with, I'm sad I won't be there for them each and every day. It's such a heartbreaking, heavy guilt that mothers go through when taking their kids to daycare. I think it's a bit easier with Jake than with Sam since we already know the caregiver, but it's still difficult. If anyone knows of a part-time job in the Ames area with benefits, I'm seriously interested. Seriously.